I miss your embrace. I miss holding your hand. I miss the random kisses on my forehead. I even miss the many slaps of the face and ass. I miss everything about you.

And yet, I hate you. Yeah, I sarcastically say this to you over and over, but I'm not completely joking. I only hate you because you are so amazing. I still remember that night, I told you, "I hate you because I will never be able to get over you." I hate you because being with you makes me genuinely happy. I hate you even more because not being with you makes me extremely depressed. I hate you because I could never ever really hate you.

The thing is, you will never know how much you truly mean to me. You always tell me, "You'd get sick of me after a few days and you know it." But no, I spent most of this week with you, and I can't get enough. The more time I spend with you, the more and more I want to be with you all of the time. I don't think you could ever realize how much I really care about you. Nor do I think you will ever feel the same way about me. Yeah, you tell me that you are constantly thinking about me. Yeah, you get mad at me because I never seem to call you or text you first. Though you refuse to believe it, I am ALWAYS thinking about you, and the only reason why I don't initiate conversations everyday is because I know that you will get sick of me. Baby, believe me, if I texted you everytime you crossed my mind, you would most definitely hate me by now.

And the worst part is, I don't even know when the fuck I'm going to see you again. Everytime we part ways, I never know when we're going to meet again. It's the worst feeling in the world. The feeling of not knowing, not knowing whether or not I will see you again. Why do you have to live so far away? Why does this have to be so difficult? I don't deserve this. You don't deserve this. Nobody in this world deserves the shit we have to go through. The distance is just too much for anyone to handle.

And you tell me that it is just a matter of time that I will find someone better than you, that I will soon forget you. You are a fool, a dumbass motherfucking fool. I will never ever forget you, and you know it. I just hope that you will never forget about me.